Lindsay Hubbard has spoken out for the first time since Carl Radke called off their engagement.
“I would like to start by saying thank you for allowing me the space and time to process my emotions, heal, and grieve the loss of not only my relationship, but my friendship with someone I considered my best friend for 8 years,” the former publicist wrote in an Instagram post on Thursday.
Hubbard admitted that the last two weeks “have been the most heartbreaking and emotional” of her life.
“My entire life and future was ripped out from underneath me and I’ve had a hard time making sense of it all – with no answers or closure on why.
“I feel humiliated by how it went down, and simultaneously heartbroken that it happened in the first place. My trust has been betrayed, and coming to terms with that has been difficult for me,” she continued.
Hubbard, 37, confirmed reports that the “Summer House” co-stars’ breakup was “not my decision” and emphasized that she does “not agree with quitting a relationship (at this level) without trying everything possible first.”
“I have spent the last couple of weeks finding my own closure and peace. I am forever grateful to my best friends who have not left my side, and have been picking up the pieces of my heart and life every day from the fallout,” she added.
The Bravolebrity acknowledged that she is “still grieving” and “trying to process all that has happened.”
“From the bottom of my heart, thank you for the love and support from my friends, family, cast mates, and all of you for carrying me through,” she concluded.
Hubbard — who recently wiped her Instagram feed of pictures with her ex-fiancé — turned off the comments on her first post since news of the split broke.
The former couple were set to say “I do” at a destination wedding in Mexico in November, but that all changed when Radke, 38, told her he couldn’t go through with it.
Two weeks after Page Six confirmed the news, Radke told wedding guests that Hubbard was “devastated” over the situation.
“Words cannot possibly express how difficult the last two weeks have been for Lindsay and I. We are so incredibly sorry to all of our guests for the confusion and lack of communication,” he wrote in a letter.
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Radke explained at the time that “the fact of the matter is Lindsay is devastated and I’m crushed with how all this transpired.”
Just hours after the letter was made public, a source told Page Six exclusively that Hubbard was blindsided.
“Lindsay did not approve of Carl’s letter before it was made public, so there is no ‘we,’” the insider said. “She’s definitely hurt by it, for sure.”
Radke and Hubbard briefly dated in 2019, but they gave their relationship a second shot in early 2022. Radke got down on one knee eight months later, and Hubbard even celebrated the upcoming nuptials with a bridal shower just two weeks before he dumped her.