Amber Portwood hasn’t spoken to her 12-year-old daughter, Leah, “in months.”
The “Teen Mom OG” star shared an update on their strained relationship in a preview clip from Tuesday’s new episode.
“I feel like I’m never going to win,” Amber, 31, admitted. “I wanted us to have a great co-parenting family that I thought we had until it became weird.”
She added, “All of the sudden, Leah just started acting weird and turning on me.”
The MTV reality star shares Leah with ex-fiancé Gary Shirley, who is now married to Kristina Anderson. Amber alleged earlier this month that Gary and Kristina have been keeping Leah from her.
“This is not [Leah]. She does not ignore me like this,” Amber – who is also mom to 3-year-old son, James, with ex Andrew Glennon – said in the new clip. “Even if I take responsibility for every single wrongdoing I’ve ever done, it just feels like it’s never enough.”
“All I can say is sorry and try to move forward,” she continued. “I can’t sit here and have her think things that aren’t true about me cause I am her mother.”
Amber went on to reveal that she wrote Leah a letter, begging for a better relationship. She said she hopes to record herself reading the letter, but is afraid Leah may have blocked her number and will never see it.
“How many times do I need to apologize? They don’t hear me?… How many times do I need to apologize?” the mom of two emotionally asked. “I’m trying.”
This season of “Teen Mom OG” has already been a difficult one for Amber, who previously admitted she and her daughter were “struggling.”
“I haven’t seen her in quite some time,” Amber said in a confessional on the Sept. 7 episode. “Leah and I are still struggling with our relationship. My relationship with Leah has changed a lot.”
She added, “All I do is text Leah all the time. I don’t get anything back. Never. Not anymore.”
“Teen Mom OG” airs Tuesdays at 8 p.m. ET on MTV.