“What people don’t realize about that night for me is that I didn’t just overdose, I also was taken advantage of,” Demi alleges in episode two, going on to accuse her unnamed drug dealer of giving her “what I assume now to be fentanyl by giving me ‘aftermarket pills.'”
Demi continues, “when they found me, I was naked, I was blue, I was literally left for dead after he took advantage of me. And when I woke up in the hospital, they asked if I had had consensual sex. And there was one flash that I had of him on top of me, I saw that flash and I said yes.”
But a month later, Demi says she realized she wasn’t “in any state of mind to make a consensual decision” and “that kind of trauma doesn’t go away overnight and it doesn’t go away in the first few months of rehab either.”
And when Demi relapsed after her overdose, she called the drug dealer because she “wanted to rewrite his choice of violating me,” she says.
“I wanted it now to be my choice and he also had something that I wanted, which were drugs,” she continues. “I called him back and I said, ‘No, I’m going to f—k you.’ It didn’t fix anything, it didn’t take anything away. It just made me feel worse, but that, for some reason, was my way of taking the power back. All it did was bring me back to my knees begging god for help.”
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As for why Demi never went public with what happened to her that night, she explains, “Honestly, ever since I watched Rihanna and her pictures get leaked after the Chris Brown incident, I was very uncomfortable with even more of my story playing out in the press. And then also maybe people not believing me.”